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no more stories... will only be pictures... enjoy...

enjoying...

seems like i can't really keep up with my blog since i have been commuting from home and up to the capital which takes about 2 hours ride in the morning and another 2 hours ride back home... i have to wake up at about 0430 hours and starts to drive at 0530 hours and arrive at the capital at about 0645 hours, as usual, go have breakfast then to office...

i didnt really take my lunch coz i replace my lunch with sleeping... only on friday i can pay back my sleeping hours, but then ofcoz, mom would go mumbling complaining me waking up late...

so today i went and watched my office mates netball tournament.. yup, going up to the capital again... but as for today, it way worth it.. my office mate for the 1st time won the netball tournament and i enjoyed spending my time with my boss's brother..

well he like to bully girls but then thats how he is.. sweet and nice.. and today, he's been nice.. he actually asked me to accompany him to buy his smoke coz he wasn't familiar with the capital area..

time goes by and we had lunch, chit chat and fags, laughs, talking about movie and whatnot was a moment to remember... well i can just say that now i enjoy having him as a company... =)

Wonderful March...

so far March has given me a good time... works great, friends great... but there is one special moment that i wont forget, chatting with him...

i was just browsing my facebook and looking for some more friends to add... then suddenly to type his name and guess what, he do have a facebook account, so i added him and he accept... i was happy...

i inbox him at his FB and he replied and it goes on... he even ask me to add him at my yahoo messenger... and so i did... yay...

we began to chat and jokes... i like it, better yet i love it... he keep on asking to join him for his diving trip at tioman and perhentian... how i wish i could join and just be at his side and smile at him all the time... hehehehehe (mimpi jer lah) but maybe when the time comes, the dream smile will be real... i like him... he is nice, charming and daring. owh and he can cook... =)

~end~

Bad February 2010...

hmmm how should i start this??

1st: this is about a girl whom only identified as SH. she emailed me details or rather updates about my other friend eddy, informing me about his stuff and out past and that she as a friend wants to nudge us back together... who does she think she is??? for all i know, she was the one who wanted eddy for herself.. i just dont understand why she did all those things... i got sick and tired of all her email that i gave her a warning and she took it rather well...

that one part of the story...

2nd: there is this guy whom i know from tagged and we have met for the 1st time last year and to me he is just a friend but he actually had this feelings for me back then, i mean how was i suppose to know if he didnt tell... so in this month (feb) we started to chat again , go out and whatnot. i mean i like going out with him, he is kinda and sweet. owh and he has a gf already. dont get me wrong here, we go out just as friends nothing more but suddenly when i got back home from outing with him, he texted me saying that his gf got jealous.

i hate this kind of stuff... so i rather take a step back, i cut ties with him. im tired of being stuck in the middle of their relationship... i know my action is cruel, but its for the best...

3rd: i no longer staying up in the capital due to something had happened and it affected me and my other brother, and so i have to commute everyday... its bloody tiring but that is all what i can do for now.

4th: last week, i received a call from my ex supervisor of comsoft, with his weak cracking voice informing me that one of the comsoft staff and a dear friend to me had passed away, due to his appendix burst... i was in total shock, Stanley has passes away... up until now i cant believe it... such a wonderful person, who smile always, love to joke around, our problem solver and tissue provider had passed away... its seems like yesterday i joke with him... i miss him dearly.. his funeral will be this thursday and memorial service on the 5th or march... rest in peace my friend, we love you and you will always be remembered....

5th: on monday the 22nd feb, my dear friend's father had passed away, due to cancer... she always talked to me about her matter and i can only share with her my opinion..

aye, tomorrow will be another working day for me... though i complained about commuting up and down, well hey, i love the long journey morning drive...

right now i realize that i'm missing several people... Stanley is the most...

Yay... im officially 30...

hey guys... on the 1st feb of 2010, i am officially 30... hahaha, i keep telling to myself that age is just a number..

did i celebrate it?? no, not this year, it is because my birthday falls on a monday so no mood to celebrate but i am going to Miri with my buddies this saturday, can say that its a belated celebration of my birthday.. hehehe..

i got tons of birthday greetings at facebook and i really really appreciated... and not just me, there are other who celebrate their birthday the same as mine... we are lucky aquarian.. =)

alright, today the 4th of feb.. i msg 'M' that i wanted to meet him for coffee.. he says after 10 pm.. the time now on my laptop is 2229 hours... tick tock tick tock waiting for his msg... hmmm.. jadi or not, i dont mind..

will update about it the next time.... good night everyone...

(friday 5th feb; 1019 hrs) i didnt meet him... =)

Happy New Year 2010 and coming 30

hi hi hi, sorry for the delay... its already 30th jan 2010 and its the new year (tho almost 1 month has pass..)

ok.. on the 31st December 2009, i celebrated my new year at Miri together with my best best buddies... it was nice. i stayed at Eastwood Valley and i have to say the place is wonderful. away from town and its quiet with all green view...

alright, last year, i finally met this guy whom i call daddy, coz he is a single father.. he is nice and all. the 1st time i wanted to meet him, i chicken out. why??? well i have got all of this mixed feelings and sunken stomach. my sister was laughing hard.. so i texted him and told him that i dont dare to meet him that 1st time.. he did say "are you afriad??" hahaha... stupid me...

and got this one time where i was only doing my routine of just asking him to join me for sushi, and what do you know, he agreed... i was surprise when he said, i'll text you, i thought he was joking and came one night where he text me, so sushi??

wow.... i was like ok, this time, for sure i will face him.. and i did.. he brought along his best buddy 'M'...

hmmmm 'M'... my 1st impression of 'M' was hazel eyes... he likes to talk in which i like, but i couldn't stop staring at his pure hazel eyes...

daddy in the other hand, keeps on visiting the toilet... we did make a joke out of it...

so i told the guys that im about to have my new year at Miri, in which 'M' wanted to join, i said y not, come and join me... story cut short, he couldn't join me...

right as new year came, on the 1st of jan, i got an invitation to a bday bash, unfortunately i was so tired after from miri and came to the bday bash... i texted 'M' that night and i wanted to meet him.. so we met.. he was nice, he talked about him in which i didnt ask.. so with the topic that he brought up, we had a good conversation... and thereafter i started to develop feelings for him...

long story short, we meet, we chat and we had coffee.. but i realised that he is still someone's hubby... i have to limit myself seeing him, tho i really want to see him..

on the 10 of Jan 2010, came Adry Arsha to the world, my best friend a.k.a sister gave birth to a charming baby boy... my god son.. very very cute... love him so much... i'm gonna wait for him to grow a bit bigger and from there im gonna spoil him... (no offense sis... heheheh)

owh guess what, my bday is coming this monday... darn, i'll be 30 this year... hehehehe

till then.... =)

I'M BACK... =)

hi hi everyone, im back again.. no i didnt went missing, just that i got caught up with work and vacation...

vacation?? yes i did have my vacation in the end month of october up to the middle month of november... alot has happened these past few months...

all i can remember from my last entry was the festive of Eid Mubarak and where i broke up with my ex bf.. that was in september

october - i was very busy with my work at this month... and was counting for my leave and vacation that i have been waiting for.. in the middle of that, i was realy excited to meet my cousin in singapore that liked me.. keep on looking at the dates, crossing each numbers of the month..
as the end of october arrived, 31st october 2009, i flew to KL..

november - as soon as arriving in KL, it was 2200++ and we didnt want to go to the hotel as our next flight to Padang Indonesia was the next morning.. our cousins from KL tagged along and i didnt have sleep for about 24 hours.. man i was really tired..

had alot of coffee, got no public bathroom.. i didnt change my clothe, i stink and i need rest badly.. no just me but everyone who was in that trip need their rest badly..

flight to Padang was at 0745 hours and it take 1 hour and 10 minutes from KL to Padang, i dozed off for a bit and awaken by the sound of the trolley that the stewardess pushes from one end to another..

as we landed at the Padang international airport (not really), our cousin was outside waiting and the workers at the airport collected our bags and put it in the trolley cart (oh btw my mom had mark our bags and thats why its easy for the airport workers to know all of out bags, way to go mom) and help us pushing it outside and in the end they asked for tips... note to ppl, dont let the workers help you..

the journey to my cousin's place way for about 2 hours and everyone had dozed off sleeping inside the car..

(to be continue.... im sleepy =) )

Festive Season is here again....

hi everyone... its been long since i last did my blog...

well this gonna be short.. since my brake off with my ex, i still in contact with him, well what can i say, 3 yrs with him and we have history, its not that easy to forget him...

well my day and night has been really good... going out with my best friend ell and my workmates... bought some stuff for my self and preparing for this festive season...

its just 3 more days to go for Aid Mubarak...

well thats is all i can do today, im kinda sleepy and i have to go to a function later...

till next time..

No longer with my other half

on the 22nd of august 2009

time 1612 hours

my other half send me a msg where that msg marks that day of im not longer with my other half

reason: he is not ready for commitment

he suggested: for us to go our own path in life

what he want: is for me to be happy with a person who is far more better than him

how i feel??

i can't force him, i miss him

what did i say?

are you sure of this? are you sure of letting me go??

no replied

...........................

Fasting Month + Problem = ALONE

good morning all, the time now is 0545, im actually still up and about after 'sahur'. so im gona doze off later after having a quick check on my fb and what not.

this is the 1st day of fasting month, where i will be alone without my other half.

"where is he?" you might wonder, owh no, he's not going anywhere, its just that, i might not gonna be with him anymore, due to some problem that i had arises to him.

somehow i just wondered, where do i stand in this relationship of ours? this 28 of August will be our 3rd year together, but somehow he just took it lightly, he piss me off, from that point, i started to ask him this and that, well i do have my rights too.

i sms him several times yesterday and untill now, no reply.. i have this feelings that i might be alone without my other half for this festive season.. honestly, this past years with him was fading. fading in the sense of loving him, giving attention to him, why you might ask, well i got less from him too, i tried my best to have this relationship work, but im tired of working alone.

i have heard alot comments from my friends and family that to leave him and find someone new, but no, i dont listen to them because i love him dearly and i actually stand up for him. hah, wasted effort.

i told him that i dont want to waste all the years that we had and plus judging from his age, he should be having his own family now, settle down happily. i did ask him several time, when are you planning to actually settle down, and the same answer over and over again, im not ready yet. ok but untill when, untill you are 50? and how long do i have to wait??

i just cnt take it anymore. i know im about to have a hard time without him, but i just couldnt take it anymore...

enough is enough..

Taking A Break...

hey hey peps.. hmmm when was my last blog post?? hehehe

yes yes, i know, i hvnt do much of updating in my blog.. lazy?? not really tho, but my time has been taken alot with events that had hppn last week and this coming week...

so yeah... but hey, yesterday i went to have thai massage, but its no good at all, im still half sore..

well ok i'll update when i have the time and thank you so much dropping by my blog...

=)

Taking A Break...

Hi again ppl, it looks like Wonder Woman have to take her break in saving the world.. hahaha seems like Wonder Woman caught the H1N1 but not positive, saving ppl with flu and all just infected her a bit... heheheh..

went to the clinic and the doctor gave Wonder Woman 2 days MC.. huhu, hope the Justice League wont be mad about this... well there is still the Man on Steel on the Job... sorry Superman...

right now Wonder Woman in recovering.. so back to work like usual...

mwahhhhhhzzzzzzzz

Photogenic Contest at the Mall

Hi ppl, im back again, and now im revealing myself to the blog world... well for the sake of my friend...

this here, i followed a photogenic contest that was held at The Mall in gadong... and today is the last.. alot of lovely contestant in which i know i cnt beat them... they are using voting system... so who voted the most is the person who will become the face of Laneige..

LG Arena + Sony Alpha...

hi all, pejam celik, pejam celik dah kita sampai bulan june.. time does fly fast huh..

korang apa khabar?? ada sehat??

me?? im ok, just ok.. well to conclude alot has happen but i just keep it short..

for the past 2 weeks, i had my badminton tournament, in which it was an inter JPM tournament.. it was fun.. but unfortunately, we lost... but hey, i got the chance to extend more friends..

hmmm what else than that?? hmmm i not quite sure coz i have forgotten some of it..

owh yeah, i was driving my car with its road tax and insurance expires on march in which i overlooked that matter.. gila gila.. syok sendiri aku drive keta aku tu, kalo tak my sis kata dia nak pi labuan kira nak ajak, aku pi tengok lah road tax aku tu, punya lah aku tekejut beruk... hehehehe... so la nie, everything is ok.. time tu, paksa lah kita limit my travelling.. tapi yang aneh nya, takde plak road block... syukur alhamdullillah... kalo tak.. nahas aku dek boss aku.. keh keh keh

smlm, kita gi jln jln ngan kawan aku sorang tu, bz nak cari rumah, sal dia dah dpt keje tetap ngan gamen.. heheheh faham faham lah ye.. so dia pi ajak kita dok tinggal dgn dia.. aku kata ok, so aku pun dok bz lah pi cari rumah yang berpatutan ngan budget kita orang..

so time jln jln tu, naik letih so we end up visit last place fot that night, kita pi soon lee kat lambak.. hehehe apa lah shopping ler.. end up aku beli baju adidas.. awal tu ada lah aku nampak baju polo merah ngan lambang liverpool kat baju tu, mahal jugak but aku tak kira time tu aku nak jugak beli, last last nya, takde lak size aku.. so maleh den nak beli.. den beli baju lain jer..

hehehe bulan november dah nak dekat nie.. aku tak sabaq nak gi key ell jumpa relative aku tu.. hehehe rindu nya...

owh yeah.. lately, aku kemarok sgt nak beli LG ARENA and Sony Alpha.. biasa lah tu, pakai loan... keh keh keh...

ok lah nie jer yang aku dpt ingat.. lain kali update lagi yer.. tunggu ler dlm sebulan lagi yek..

chow..

morther's day, b'day and tourney... my day??

hey... long time no see, hehehe.... my last blog was on the 29 april... (lama ker tu???)

anyhow... a lot had happened.. in which i can't really remember. but i do remember that i hang out with the siblings and alai on her b'day..

work?? hmmm i have got a new task in which im not really specialize in it.. but since its part of my work, i have to give it a try... so far, so good..

my love life.. hmmm so far its ok but then i did brought up the matter again about marriage... same reply like what have i wrote in my previous blog..

my trip... well i thought because of this new task of mine that i have to cancell my long awaited trip in november, but then i have to thank my boss who stood up for me.. so yeah, my trip in november is on baby.... hahahaha

today... my plan was to go out to gadong to find gifts for my nephews and nieces b'day this sunday, along with mother's day.. haha i did find some but i still dont know what to find for my kids (nephews and nieces) but i have a great gift for my mom...
i just had my badminton practice at PGGMB building at kiyanggeh.. man that place is hot... there will be a tournament this coming 16 may... so far i know lah...

well thats it for now... boring kan... like rp would say kannnnnnnnnnnnn....

Retro Night When I Saw Him Standing There

yes, i did when to the retro night function at polo club last saturday, it was a last minute decision where i was given a free ticket that late afternoon.

so i have planned to take a quick bath and dress and went straight to my hair dresser to fixed my hair and make up. i know i don't have a suitable dress for that function, but hey, with the hair do and make up, it enough to make me look good.

so, i arrived at the club by 1930 hrs, went in and was looking for the table that has been assigned to. when i went in, i didn't even notice him seating at his table.. i start to notice when i was wondering about to ask for the table.. and i was can i say happy to see him there.. hahaha, YES, i was happy..

and yes that night was my 1st day of period, in which i have to frequently go to the ladies room in which it passes him table too.. *wink*wink*

and so.. the night goes by and many pictures was taken by my friend Eally.. one of my friend did took picture with him in which her intention was to grab me and take picture with him, in which it didn't happen coz, he was already going back to his table..

but somehow, i did take picture with him, in a group, standing beside him in which he did offer.. *ohhh my god*.. i was screaming in my heart *yes, im standing next to him in picture*

there was this time when i took picture with ms foo, and he and another person was standing nor far from us, while taking picture, i did saw him in a glance was looking at us.. and when i notice that, he looked away.. (bukan lah aku nie nak perasan sgt, but then kira rasa hati kan..)

so just now, i had a talk with my girlfriends about this matter, in which an info was given that he is not married yet.. its like a ting ting ting... there you go, you have a chance to approch him and make friends.. hmmm i would love too, but then im a bit shy lah....

hehehehehehe... so yeah... what can i do here???

~~ and i say hey Whats Going On ~~

ohayo mina san? o genki desuka??

hai, hai.. i just got back home yesterday, (no no, i havent been out of the country yet). its was a long week of working days. i do feel that the time has gone slow for this week.. but im glad to be home and yet my routine for friday is to wake up late and yet, i woke up at 8 am.. it could be my body alarm.. oiii....

yeah, oh i just bought a new dvd last nite with my friend Sam, it call Zettai Kareshi, the complete perfect robot boyfriend ressurect special.. it the continuation of the serries Zettai Kareshi.. wahhh how i love mokomichi hayami.. i told this to my Lil Mui Mui... she freaked out.. she warn me not to lend it anyone before her...

yes, alot of thing had hppn.. my girlfriend has problem on her own in which for the time being i am unable to help her out.. my workmate come to me for her problem and i manage to give her advice about her boyfriend, and my other workmate also come to me about her problem.. by listening to their problems, i can imagine how they encountered by daily love life.. and i pictured mine.. somehow, i can picture their love lifes is much more better than mine..

am i comparing you say? most propably..

about that guy?? well he really loves his gf and im happy for him, we only chat online.. he told me about his problem with gf, i told him about mine.. we give each other ideas... it great to have an exchange of mind and idea and its healthy.. we just remain friends..

well today, my sister insisted me to go with her to Bandar to look for a laptop below 1k.. well here we go hunting...

haiiii mina san... ja ne...

Im Home...

it was a long drive home, but its worth it... drive and sing along in the car... i love it...

as i reached home, a big smile carved on my mom's face, a nice warm smile i longing to see... i missed that smile.. my sis, i long to chat with her and hear her voice..

ahhhh all of this, im having it now... this moment do have its limit, in which i have to go back on saturday morning for work and have to wait for thursday again...

:(

Me and My Heart...

how can i say this..

recently, i chatted with him again and i kinda develop this feelings for him and i have got this feeling that he want me too, but then both of us have our someone to love, him with his 4 yrs relationship gf and mine with a 2 yrs and 8 months relationship bf. he wanted to settle down with his gf, in which i supported him in that, tho i know im gonna be a bit hurt. i confessed to him that i like him and he asked me, why i didnt let him know about it, i told him that i was afraid of rejection, so for the best that i didnt let him know about it and the result is bad. thats why, if you like someone, let them know, who knows the result might be good, but then if it turns out not the way you wanted, well just move on.

i told him that his gf is so lucky to have him, coz to me he is charming and wonderful type of person. and he told me that my bf is lucky to have me coz im understanding and what not.. sometimes he made me blushed, tho during chatting... hahaha...

like i said, he wanted to settle down with his gf, i told him to do it soon, somehow, he kept on saying he "hoped". i told him not to "hoped" but to make it hppn.

we chat about the past.. in which it was a lovely memory. he had asked me, what hppn to us? why did we lost contact? i said i dont know, he assume that i left him, well its actually, he left me. i didnt want to put this blame on him coz it was a long time ago.

what is going to hppn in our future?? a big question and yet no answer to it.. GOD help me.. i love my sayang very much, but yet, i want him too, to be in my life.. how is this going to be??

Undress Me

When I can't see right in your eyes
When I'm surrounded in the craziness of time
When you're understanding, is trying hard to stand still
When I wear layers of my pride, you should

Undress me, undress me
Unlock this chain and set me free
Remind me to be myself
Undress me, undress me
Unleash my heart and make me see
When I become someone else

Whenever I'm trapped in this tide
When I forgotten that there is you and I
When your persuasion is fighting in a blindfold
when I wear my bad moods to my mouth, you should

Like a rose without its thorn
Like a bird without a song
Like the fire without the flame
If there's a painless love, we wouldn't be the same