Want You To Want Me Selamanya

I'm here give me a glance, been following you like a shadow
This is how I spent my time dreaming about our days tomorrow
Another day has gone bye another moon another sun
I can wait for you my love
Don't want to do any harm just find a gate to your attention

Sometimes I walk away 'cause I know that we can't ever be together
Sometimes I close my mind I can't keep this love for myself any longer
Somehow I have to find the right time to say that I Want you to want me,
Even in my dreams

I hope yo know who I am through all the letters I have sent you
I know I'm not the only one wanting and dreaming about you
Two different world between us, you're on the spotlights far from my touch
I can't wait here forever
For a sign from your eyes the magic I wish I could have

Should've walked away 'cause I knew that we can't ever be together
Should've closed my mind
should've known that this love can't go any further
Should've stopped myself from this dream 'cause life will never
Want you to want me
even in my dreams
In my dreams

Kuharap mentari pagi, tak menyambut ku,
Kuharap sinar rembulan, tutup mataku...
Selamanya
Sejak kau pergi, tinggalkan bumi,
tinggalku di sini
Turunkan matahari / Usir bintang-bintang
Putarkan utara ke selatan
untuk apa lagi, semuanya
Ambillah jiwa retak ini, ku tak ingin lagi
Putuskan ari-ari bumi, aku ingin pergi
menuju abadi...
Selamanya

Body System Up and Down...

hey readers and friends..

the truth is, i haven't been well since last Saturday. Well it actually happened last Friday where i had badminton practice with my workmate and my boyfie.. i was excited to go for the practice, so, i did my badminton practice without warming up, HAHAHA, and guess what, i got bad back ache.

i was in the middle of a game when i got that back ache, and i asked someone to replace me.. i can't even bend down to take the shuttle and i have to kneel down to pick it up... hahahaha guess what my friend says: "alamak sopan nya ambik shuttle badminton". everyone laughed..

so due to that back ache, i couldn't play on that day, i only have my practice lesson with my boyfie.. he showed my how to give the service the tricky way and where the shuttle should land.. it was interesting...

then i force my self to have one game, mixed double with my boyfie, i defend the front line and he defend the back line... hahaha sounds like we are going for a battle... well since i have a pro on my side, for sure we won the game..

so, practice ends and me and the gurls (eally, rozie and mel), went to have our dinner at Soto Rimba at Jln 3. like usual, had a nice dinner along with satay as side orders..

so Saturday came, my back was still aching, i remembered that rozie had told me about one of our workmate go for a massage, and i asked her where and she gave me the phone number to that shop, and i called, made an appoinment by 8pm.

when i arrived at that shop exactly at 8pm, the old indon lady came and ask me "kamu yang buat booking mau urut??" and i replied: "iya saya". so she asked me to sit and wait. she came with a pail of hot water to soak my feet, it was hot, and she says it good...

after soaking, i went inside the room where she had asked me to take off my clothes and lay down on the bed face down.. alright alright lets skiped that part.

long story short, her massage was goooooooodddddddd.... but then the times up and i reached home, i feel hungry.. so i called up my boyfie to have late dinner.. but somehow, i was in pain, stomach pain, feels like gastric pain. i thought i was hungry, so we had dinner. but somehow, thats not it.. then i confirm it is gastric..

i have sleepless night because of it..

yesterday, there was no electricity in some part of the town and it had affected my work place.. i did left a nick in my FB saying, im working in the dark.. so, by 10 am i went out for tea with my workmate. lucky there was a apek shop selling med (thats what my friend call it). so i bought Alucid for my gastric..

my eating now is not right, i can hardly finish my food and i feel like vomiting all the time. NO NO, im not pregnant, im just having my gastric and I AM NOT MARRIED YET OK... hehehehe..

and right now, im addicted to Restaurant City in FB. a game by playfish..

enjoy..

My Blog

hey hey friends and readers... i have to apologize that i haven't been up dating my blog, well nothing much happened, only that i have been busy with my badminton practice and tournament last sunday where we won 3rd place...

so now, i dont have much to say.. i'll be back once i get on track...

gomendasai mina san...

Encountered Events…

For this past few days was a bit slow for me, didn’t have much work to do at the office and had badminton practice at night.. this time I didn’t get my body sore..

I went down to KB last Thursday because mommy wanted me to buy her anchovies for condiment in her nasi lemak, since in KB the price per kilo was $12.. yes, that mommy, if can she want it to be the cheapest, lucky I found one stall was selling at a reasonable price, got my boyfie to help me out with the bargaining…

Right, I reached KB by 1900 hrs and I decided to have my dinner at WyWy in Kg Pandan, for about 15 minute of sitting waiting for my meal, the environment was easy and clam, then come a group of girls from the other side of the table and they moved to my area of sitting, only one table away, they were noisy, laughing out like bunch of hyenas. God, so irritating, I took out my head set and plug it in my ears and laptop. While browsing my FB, i text Lil Mui Mui from FB chat application, i told her that im avoiding natural disaster distroying the envirenment, she ask what kind, i replied, noise that came from a group of girls that was sitting one table away from me.. nuisance... Lil Mui Mui was laughing hard...

So, on Friday, nothing much going on, was just inside my bro’s room watching “Oh! My Girl” a Japanese series that I have bought months ago.. while doing so, I was also online and like always, FB is the 1st page that I open, and guess what, the same old thing, someone was trying to “FLIRT” with my friend in my FB network.. hmmm I can say that she is slowly rowing her boat to get near to my friend.. HAHA… she is using her word power to get his attention… hehe, and the words that she used is so complex.. yes yes she wants to show to the world how good her vocabulary is… so I say to myself, where is the simplicity? Even I don’t understand her words, I have to read it over and over again…

That’s her story part, remember in my 1st post about a guy that I delete from FB?? Yeah, he is in my MSN contact, this past few days also, he started to chat with me, he said that I look a bit thin, he ask if the picture was recent, I said yes, the picture was taken on my birthday on the 1st feb, hmmm

So, we chatted and he keep on asking if im free or not, I replied; no, I have got badminton practice at scout building due to I have got tournament coming this 29 march. Well he sounded a bit disappointed, then, he started talk about his relationship with his GF, that his GF didn’t understand him and his hobby of golf, work and his time with her, she always thought that he is seeing other girls behind her back and what not…

So, I told him to confront to her about his feelings and time, he tried but she still wont understand, well ofcoz , us ladies need to be pampered and stuff, but sometimes, without understanding some relationship might end just like that.. Sometimes, I feel that same way too, but that is what you called love life of ups and downs… so bare with it…

Yes, so now, all I can think of having lunch at yappy or just stay back, and after work, I wanna go back home KB. I have to attend my school mate wedding on Sunday and jog in the afternoon at Lagoon in front of my house…

Ja mata ashita mina san.. domo arigato…

Cleaning + Dust = Asthma

hmmmm i guess this is what i get from not covering my nose while doing cleaning yesterday morning...

yeap asthma attack, lucky im at home in KB and most of my medical records is at Suri Seri Begawan Hospital, my sister drove me to the hospital and they give my nebulizer and then the doctor prescribe me with puffer blue and dark brown and 1 day MC coz he want to review me later this morning, but still i have to go up Bandar to my work place coz i need to hand over my MC to my supervisor and drive back home...

and i cant sleep....

Sore

hey hey there.. im back.. (hmmm where have i gone to??)

hehehehe.....

well just to let you guys out there know that i will be having a short brake from my bloggy and my FB.. Im having muscle pain right now and i walk like a robot... so till i recover im having my short brake...

taking care all you sweety out there

Life

Everyone have their own life in front of them, where they have made plans of what they gonna do. Some want to stay single till they have achieve their target, some want to get married a.s.a.p, some just don't know what to do with their life once they have fallen, some are afraid of commitments and some are just carefree..

Now, i just don't know where i belong too, maybe i'm a carefree person, or maybe i want to step ahead in relationship or maybe i want to achieve my goals, but sometimes what we planned doesn't always go as what we have predicted..

In my 29 years of living and working, i do want to go to the next level of the relationship, marriage. I have been in relationship for almost 3 years now, and everyone surrounding me keep on saying "kawin tah", well, its easy for them to say, but the one who has to go through all those shits is me.. Is all in the matter of money and arrangements.. Hmm almost to 3 years of relationship?? How long do i have to wait?? Now that question always pop out in me head.. I did give out my courage to ask him, but then the same answer i always get, "im not ready"

Hmm, funny, my brother is eagerly want to settle down.. i DO want to settle down.. i dont want to give anymore burdern to my 2nd brother and his wife.. It doesn't feels right..

Should I find someone new and start all over again?? Should i ask my mother to arrange my marriage?? Should i just wait for him till he is ready?? Should i force him to settle down??


Owh God!!!