on the 22nd of august 2009
time 1612 hours
my other half send me a msg where that msg marks that day of im not longer with my other half
reason: he is not ready for commitment
he suggested: for us to go our own path in life
what he want: is for me to be happy with a person who is far more better than him
how i feel??
i can't force him, i miss him
what did i say?
are you sure of this? are you sure of letting me go??
no replied
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Tuesday 25 August 2009
Saturday 22 August 2009
Fasting Month + Problem = ALONE
good morning all, the time now is 0545, im actually still up and about after 'sahur'. so im gona doze off later after having a quick check on my fb and what not.
this is the 1st day of fasting month, where i will be alone without my other half.
"where is he?" you might wonder, owh no, he's not going anywhere, its just that, i might not gonna be with him anymore, due to some problem that i had arises to him.
somehow i just wondered, where do i stand in this relationship of ours? this 28 of August will be our 3rd year together, but somehow he just took it lightly, he piss me off, from that point, i started to ask him this and that, well i do have my rights too.
i sms him several times yesterday and untill now, no reply.. i have this feelings that i might be alone without my other half for this festive season.. honestly, this past years with him was fading. fading in the sense of loving him, giving attention to him, why you might ask, well i got less from him too, i tried my best to have this relationship work, but im tired of working alone.
i have heard alot comments from my friends and family that to leave him and find someone new, but no, i dont listen to them because i love him dearly and i actually stand up for him. hah, wasted effort.
i told him that i dont want to waste all the years that we had and plus judging from his age, he should be having his own family now, settle down happily. i did ask him several time, when are you planning to actually settle down, and the same answer over and over again, im not ready yet. ok but untill when, untill you are 50? and how long do i have to wait??
i just cnt take it anymore. i know im about to have a hard time without him, but i just couldnt take it anymore...
enough is enough..
this is the 1st day of fasting month, where i will be alone without my other half.
"where is he?" you might wonder, owh no, he's not going anywhere, its just that, i might not gonna be with him anymore, due to some problem that i had arises to him.
somehow i just wondered, where do i stand in this relationship of ours? this 28 of August will be our 3rd year together, but somehow he just took it lightly, he piss me off, from that point, i started to ask him this and that, well i do have my rights too.
i sms him several times yesterday and untill now, no reply.. i have this feelings that i might be alone without my other half for this festive season.. honestly, this past years with him was fading. fading in the sense of loving him, giving attention to him, why you might ask, well i got less from him too, i tried my best to have this relationship work, but im tired of working alone.
i have heard alot comments from my friends and family that to leave him and find someone new, but no, i dont listen to them because i love him dearly and i actually stand up for him. hah, wasted effort.
i told him that i dont want to waste all the years that we had and plus judging from his age, he should be having his own family now, settle down happily. i did ask him several time, when are you planning to actually settle down, and the same answer over and over again, im not ready yet. ok but untill when, untill you are 50? and how long do i have to wait??
i just cnt take it anymore. i know im about to have a hard time without him, but i just couldnt take it anymore...
enough is enough..
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