Retro Night When I Saw Him Standing There

yes, i did when to the retro night function at polo club last saturday, it was a last minute decision where i was given a free ticket that late afternoon.

so i have planned to take a quick bath and dress and went straight to my hair dresser to fixed my hair and make up. i know i don't have a suitable dress for that function, but hey, with the hair do and make up, it enough to make me look good.

so, i arrived at the club by 1930 hrs, went in and was looking for the table that has been assigned to. when i went in, i didn't even notice him seating at his table.. i start to notice when i was wondering about to ask for the table.. and i was can i say happy to see him there.. hahaha, YES, i was happy..

and yes that night was my 1st day of period, in which i have to frequently go to the ladies room in which it passes him table too.. *wink*wink*

and so.. the night goes by and many pictures was taken by my friend Eally.. one of my friend did took picture with him in which her intention was to grab me and take picture with him, in which it didn't happen coz, he was already going back to his table..

but somehow, i did take picture with him, in a group, standing beside him in which he did offer.. *ohhh my god*.. i was screaming in my heart *yes, im standing next to him in picture*

there was this time when i took picture with ms foo, and he and another person was standing nor far from us, while taking picture, i did saw him in a glance was looking at us.. and when i notice that, he looked away.. (bukan lah aku nie nak perasan sgt, but then kira rasa hati kan..)

so just now, i had a talk with my girlfriends about this matter, in which an info was given that he is not married yet.. its like a ting ting ting... there you go, you have a chance to approch him and make friends.. hmmm i would love too, but then im a bit shy lah....

hehehehehehe... so yeah... what can i do here???

~~ and i say hey Whats Going On ~~

ohayo mina san? o genki desuka??

hai, hai.. i just got back home yesterday, (no no, i havent been out of the country yet). its was a long week of working days. i do feel that the time has gone slow for this week.. but im glad to be home and yet my routine for friday is to wake up late and yet, i woke up at 8 am.. it could be my body alarm.. oiii....

yeah, oh i just bought a new dvd last nite with my friend Sam, it call Zettai Kareshi, the complete perfect robot boyfriend ressurect special.. it the continuation of the serries Zettai Kareshi.. wahhh how i love mokomichi hayami.. i told this to my Lil Mui Mui... she freaked out.. she warn me not to lend it anyone before her...

yes, alot of thing had hppn.. my girlfriend has problem on her own in which for the time being i am unable to help her out.. my workmate come to me for her problem and i manage to give her advice about her boyfriend, and my other workmate also come to me about her problem.. by listening to their problems, i can imagine how they encountered by daily love life.. and i pictured mine.. somehow, i can picture their love lifes is much more better than mine..

am i comparing you say? most propably..

about that guy?? well he really loves his gf and im happy for him, we only chat online.. he told me about his problem with gf, i told him about mine.. we give each other ideas... it great to have an exchange of mind and idea and its healthy.. we just remain friends..

well today, my sister insisted me to go with her to Bandar to look for a laptop below 1k.. well here we go hunting...

haiiii mina san... ja ne...

Im Home...

it was a long drive home, but its worth it... drive and sing along in the car... i love it...

as i reached home, a big smile carved on my mom's face, a nice warm smile i longing to see... i missed that smile.. my sis, i long to chat with her and hear her voice..

ahhhh all of this, im having it now... this moment do have its limit, in which i have to go back on saturday morning for work and have to wait for thursday again...

:(

Me and My Heart...

how can i say this..

recently, i chatted with him again and i kinda develop this feelings for him and i have got this feeling that he want me too, but then both of us have our someone to love, him with his 4 yrs relationship gf and mine with a 2 yrs and 8 months relationship bf. he wanted to settle down with his gf, in which i supported him in that, tho i know im gonna be a bit hurt. i confessed to him that i like him and he asked me, why i didnt let him know about it, i told him that i was afraid of rejection, so for the best that i didnt let him know about it and the result is bad. thats why, if you like someone, let them know, who knows the result might be good, but then if it turns out not the way you wanted, well just move on.

i told him that his gf is so lucky to have him, coz to me he is charming and wonderful type of person. and he told me that my bf is lucky to have me coz im understanding and what not.. sometimes he made me blushed, tho during chatting... hahaha...

like i said, he wanted to settle down with his gf, i told him to do it soon, somehow, he kept on saying he "hoped". i told him not to "hoped" but to make it hppn.

we chat about the past.. in which it was a lovely memory. he had asked me, what hppn to us? why did we lost contact? i said i dont know, he assume that i left him, well its actually, he left me. i didnt want to put this blame on him coz it was a long time ago.

what is going to hppn in our future?? a big question and yet no answer to it.. GOD help me.. i love my sayang very much, but yet, i want him too, to be in my life.. how is this going to be??

Undress Me

When I can't see right in your eyes
When I'm surrounded in the craziness of time
When you're understanding, is trying hard to stand still
When I wear layers of my pride, you should

Undress me, undress me
Unlock this chain and set me free
Remind me to be myself
Undress me, undress me
Unleash my heart and make me see
When I become someone else

Whenever I'm trapped in this tide
When I forgotten that there is you and I
When your persuasion is fighting in a blindfold
when I wear my bad moods to my mouth, you should

Like a rose without its thorn
Like a bird without a song
Like the fire without the flame
If there's a painless love, we wouldn't be the same

Want You To Want Me Selamanya

I'm here give me a glance, been following you like a shadow
This is how I spent my time dreaming about our days tomorrow
Another day has gone bye another moon another sun
I can wait for you my love
Don't want to do any harm just find a gate to your attention

Sometimes I walk away 'cause I know that we can't ever be together
Sometimes I close my mind I can't keep this love for myself any longer
Somehow I have to find the right time to say that I Want you to want me,
Even in my dreams

I hope yo know who I am through all the letters I have sent you
I know I'm not the only one wanting and dreaming about you
Two different world between us, you're on the spotlights far from my touch
I can't wait here forever
For a sign from your eyes the magic I wish I could have

Should've walked away 'cause I knew that we can't ever be together
Should've closed my mind
should've known that this love can't go any further
Should've stopped myself from this dream 'cause life will never
Want you to want me
even in my dreams
In my dreams

Kuharap mentari pagi, tak menyambut ku,
Kuharap sinar rembulan, tutup mataku...
Selamanya
Sejak kau pergi, tinggalkan bumi,
tinggalku di sini
Turunkan matahari / Usir bintang-bintang
Putarkan utara ke selatan
untuk apa lagi, semuanya
Ambillah jiwa retak ini, ku tak ingin lagi
Putuskan ari-ari bumi, aku ingin pergi
menuju abadi...
Selamanya

Body System Up and Down...

hey readers and friends..

the truth is, i haven't been well since last Saturday. Well it actually happened last Friday where i had badminton practice with my workmate and my boyfie.. i was excited to go for the practice, so, i did my badminton practice without warming up, HAHAHA, and guess what, i got bad back ache.

i was in the middle of a game when i got that back ache, and i asked someone to replace me.. i can't even bend down to take the shuttle and i have to kneel down to pick it up... hahahaha guess what my friend says: "alamak sopan nya ambik shuttle badminton". everyone laughed..

so due to that back ache, i couldn't play on that day, i only have my practice lesson with my boyfie.. he showed my how to give the service the tricky way and where the shuttle should land.. it was interesting...

then i force my self to have one game, mixed double with my boyfie, i defend the front line and he defend the back line... hahaha sounds like we are going for a battle... well since i have a pro on my side, for sure we won the game..

so, practice ends and me and the gurls (eally, rozie and mel), went to have our dinner at Soto Rimba at Jln 3. like usual, had a nice dinner along with satay as side orders..

so Saturday came, my back was still aching, i remembered that rozie had told me about one of our workmate go for a massage, and i asked her where and she gave me the phone number to that shop, and i called, made an appoinment by 8pm.

when i arrived at that shop exactly at 8pm, the old indon lady came and ask me "kamu yang buat booking mau urut??" and i replied: "iya saya". so she asked me to sit and wait. she came with a pail of hot water to soak my feet, it was hot, and she says it good...

after soaking, i went inside the room where she had asked me to take off my clothes and lay down on the bed face down.. alright alright lets skiped that part.

long story short, her massage was goooooooodddddddd.... but then the times up and i reached home, i feel hungry.. so i called up my boyfie to have late dinner.. but somehow, i was in pain, stomach pain, feels like gastric pain. i thought i was hungry, so we had dinner. but somehow, thats not it.. then i confirm it is gastric..

i have sleepless night because of it..

yesterday, there was no electricity in some part of the town and it had affected my work place.. i did left a nick in my FB saying, im working in the dark.. so, by 10 am i went out for tea with my workmate. lucky there was a apek shop selling med (thats what my friend call it). so i bought Alucid for my gastric..

my eating now is not right, i can hardly finish my food and i feel like vomiting all the time. NO NO, im not pregnant, im just having my gastric and I AM NOT MARRIED YET OK... hehehehe..

and right now, im addicted to Restaurant City in FB. a game by playfish..

enjoy..